New Years Resolution 2013

Okay, readers (if you're out there). One of my new years resolutions is to blog more. Not because I want to be one of those hip, famous bloggers, but because I love sharing ideas. And do I usually share my thoughts here? No! A brief note: I have countless photos I've taken and thoughts I've jotted down with good intentions to share here, but that have gotten lost in the abyss of to-dos and the following.

I used to think I didn't have time to blog because I was too busy parenting, designing, exercising, reading, researching, cooking, you get the idea. And it was true, or at least a nod to my priorities in that ever so busy season of having two little, energetic guys 15 months apart.

But now, I'm in a new season with both of my fast-growing boys off to school all day. Excuses are gone if I want them to be. I'm still busy, but could certainly make the time if I really want. Plus, I'm in a new era of technology than years ago when it was such an arduous process to share photos and submit a post on the fly.

However, with my recent discovery that I'm a 3 on the Enneagram (more on that later), I'm realizing that my current inactivity with social media / my blog lies mostly in the fact that it is sometimes nearly torturous for me to write freely and candidly, especially when it comes to the reality of the possibility of being scrutinized 24/7 in the ever-so-vast, vulnerable, never sleeping realm of the virtual world.

And if I'm really honest with myself, blogging regularly also comes with the fear of caring too much about it and seeking the approval of those of you reading this, which I have worried would manifest in a false self-identity to the ultimate demise of my soul and become an unproductive waste of time. (Hello, run-on.)

But alas, I am choosing to let go of those fears and give it a shot, even if it turns out to be a failing one.

So here goes, and thanks for reading.

PS: One last thought: the awful aesthetics of my current site is a major inspirational hang-up for me. Look for a face-lift in the near future!